Hello,
So only for context I am going to Laguna Hills Excessive Faculty (junior), which has lately been on the information for a particularly racist assault.
information article right here –> https://www.latimes.com/california/story/2022-01-25/video-captures-racist-slurs-at-laguna-hills-high-basketball-game
anyhow, the college is situated in Orange County, the place all of the snobby wealthy individuals reside 🙂
I’m type of higher center class, however my dad lately left the household as a consequence of his bipolar dysfunction, amongst different hard-to-talk about stuff… so probably not doing nicely proper now
In the present day in Spanish class my instructor was casually asking my desk of 4 (together with me) if any of us lived in Nellie gail, a very actually wealthy group. *Now earlier than I am going additional if i sort weirdly it is cuz i bought acrylic nails on with a purpose to slot in with the remainder of the wealthy individuals at my faculty so maintain on…*
anyhow, OF COURSE THE POPULAR SELFISH RACIST GIRL RIGHT NEXT TO ME LIVES IN ONE OF THE RICHEST COMMUNITIES IN THE WORLD… OF COURSE. Two of the individuals mentioned no, and he or she mentioned sure.
Then it got here my flip. I nodded sure, and i believed that was the tip of this supposed “LETS SEE WHO’S RICH AND COMPLETELY VIOLATE EVERYONE’S PRIVACY!” recreation, however apparently it was not. LIKE WHY IS THE TEACHER EVEN ASKING THAT QUESTION?!?!?!? and earlier than you guys ask me why I nodded “sure”, I did it as a result of I simply wished to slot in with everyone else and have these entitled individuals truly assume one thing of me..
THIS RICH POPULAR GIRL, NAMED SCARLETT (NOT HER ACTUAL NAME), THEN GOES ON TO FUCKING ASK WHAT STREET NAME I LIVE ON!!! SHE”S INTERROGATING ME
so i simply say that im not good at geography and that i’ve to confess, i take advantage of the gps on a regular basis to go residence.
that appears to close them up, however im sure she was interrogating me as a result of she didn’t imagine me.
i do know it is a lengthy story and that i sound like an fool, however i really feel like i ought to say one thing tomorrow.
like i ought to analysis at the moment and say a great road identify tomorrow…
the factor is, i’ve numerous Anxiousness and OCD, and it is actually fucking arduous for me to attach with different individuals. I do not know if I ought to admit this, however I’ve been having visions of killing her particularly, in addition to different individuals. Not like killing them, however positively hurting them. like banging her head in opposition to the desk repeatedly
I JUST CANT STAND HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE AND LIVING IN ORANGE COUNTY. I HATE THIS PLACE AND ALL THE ENTITLED RICH PEOPLE WHO LIVE HERE. FUCK THIS PLACE.
and when i attempt to inform my household they only inform me to “preserve quiet and do my work.” like im sorry however im actually scuffling with that when these wealthy individuals shove their wealthy asses in my face always on a regular basis!
anyhow yeah sorry for the rant however idk what to say tomorrow and im scared they’re going to interrogate me additional tomorrow. i have already got loads to cope with (at the moment taking a look at remedy) and as each single day passes i really feel the urge to kill somebody
